March 12th, 2007
doing an interview this week has helped me to solidify some of my thinking on what i am attempting to do in this world. i don’t think one should ever be too solid in their thinking, as it puts one at risk for dogmatic thinking, and halts the investigative process. but it is helpful to step back from your own process from time to time and notice the connections between lines of thinking, concepts, and methods. i think i am noticing that my current methods involve being part scientific investigator, part philosopher, part ecopsychologist, and part artist.
the senses are what keep me connected to the natural world. i do not forget that at the root of my existence i am an animal. sitting in front of screens for too long dulls the senses and turns us into passive creatures disconnected from the earth. when was the last time we spoke to the animals outside our windows?
i have started to document the different bird calls in my neighborhood and notice the birds that make these sounds. yesterday we heard a new one, and looked up to see what appeared to be a baby hawk. it’s call was so strange and foreign to me. I wondered if native peoples of the area would have heard a message in it and have been able to speak to it in return.
as the snow continues to melt i am aware of the earth beneath my feet exhaling and throwing up that wonderful wet smell that tells you spring is coming. I notice more joggers now (needing to move their muscles after the winter), a few car windows cracked to let in the smell, and the tiny rivers of water running alongside the roads, (snow escaping the warm air).
early this morning the trickster ice threw me to the ground in a failed attempt at keeping spring at bay. but i got the last word as i looked at the ground an hour later to see him transformed into a pool beneath my feet. i showed him the bandaids on my right hand as a message. your time has come.
i am going out today wearing shoes instead of boots, to count the smells and feel the earth breathing again after a long sleep.