November 17th, 2010
the visit

Sound: (knock at the door)

Me: (opens door. Looks at creature wearing a t-shirt that reads “fear of failure”, the shirt is covered in bloodstains.)

“You?!?”, I exclaim, “I thought I was done with you.”

“Apparently not, since you seem a bit flustered.”

“Shit, is it that obvious? Listen, I know now that comparing oneself to others is silly. We all have different life paths, so it is a futile act to compare one with another. Each human is here to learn different things and progress in different ways.”

“So why am I here then?”

“Because I still have those days when my confidence takes a nose dive?”

“You’re human, it happens.”

“You might as come in. We should probably sit for a while. But only for a day or so because I have work to do and I’m anxious to get back to it.”

“Why don’t we go for a long walk instead.”

“Sounds good.”

Nov 17 2010
9:01 pm
CHILI writes:

That was really good to read, thank you.
By the way, is this the same Keri Smith?

Nov 17 2010
9:07 pm
Liz C. writes:

I love you, Keri Smith!!:)

Nov 17 2010
10:30 pm
Philippa writes:

That guy really gets around – I see him regularly at my house….

Nov 17 2010
11:59 pm
CHILI writes:

I just realize that, yes, that book is also yours.
There is a nice bookstore in Mexico City called Gandhi, they have a big sale around Christmas, and that is how I got this book, it was probably 2004, I wasn’t a mother yet, but this was a Christmas gift to myself, and every time I look at it it made me feel kind of happy. This week my 4 year old son has discover it, and loves it, but keeps asking, where are the other people from the story, so I guess I will be making some.

Nov 18 2010
2:57 am
Monnah writes:

Love it. Thanks for sharing! You’re good. I try doing everything to fight that creature, but maybe taking a walk is a better approach… I’ll try that next time!

Nov 18 2010
4:09 am
Folkscallmejonny writes:

I think those T-shirts could be a winner.

Nov 18 2010
4:16 am
Menachem writes:

There is no such thing as failure and failure is not optional.

Nov 18 2010
5:04 am
mariska eyck writes:

Thank you for your post! In some sorts of coaching we call this guy a ‘saboteur’, which he is of course. And then you’re only supposed to talk to him for no more then 15 minutes, because he can drain your energy so badly that you won’t be able to put one foot in front of the other anymore, Grrrrrrh, scary, isn’t it!! Luckily he ‘only’ exist in your mind. Well, not counting all the people around you who rather have you safe than happy but unsecure in arts.
Greetings, Mariska

Nov 18 2010
7:03 am
Anna writes:

So reckognizable. Thanks for sharing, it’s somehow always a big comfort to know you are not the only one.

Nov 18 2010
7:25 am
Christina writes:

YES! YES! YES! I am having one of those days…

Nov 18 2010
9:51 am
sandy writes:

you know that quote, goes something like this:
Comparisons are odious….

Nov 18 2010
12:10 pm
Anna B writes:

thanks for the humourous take on it – its nice that your demon is polite enough to come to the door at least and have a civil conversation about it!

Nov 18 2010
12:33 pm
Heather writes:

Love it! I have so been there. For hours, days, months or more! I too am learning to tell it to go for a walk!

Nov 18 2010
1:04 pm
selene writes:

Sounds familiar! I hate that monster, but it feels good when you defeat it/the feeling/the fear

Nov 23 2010
1:13 pm
mydeerfriend writes:

That guy’s always hanging around!!

Dec 17 2010
3:38 pm
Andrea Calisi writes:


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