oh my goodness. thank you. I sit here crying, thank you. tuesday, I am going to quit my job, that pays well, pays the bills if not the mortgage. Because I belive in myself. Because I too have a book I want publishers to see and accept and publish. Because I am so creative that it is time to sit on the hot plate and see what happens. I am afraid. and ready.

After reading the comments--there is a synchronicity to them--a number of souls all ready to venture into new territory--not comfortable, but outside the boundries. This happens. Ask (which you are doing) and the universe will answer. Have you ever had an idea and then in a few weeks time seen or read the very same idea processed by another? someone will be receptive to YOUR idea. It seems you already have an audience eager to purchase your new venture--perhaps show the editors these posts?

This time I must jump in with all the other comments and show my face. These quotes, your resolve right in the presence of a shaking ground - you cannot know how very encouraging this is to me. I LOVE the quotes. I have been waiting for them. They are JUST what I need today. Thank you.

:D great!
♥ I have lots of these too!

What have you written then, that you can't get accepted? A novel? A philosophical tract?

i adore "living out loud", and i enjoy reading about your process (thank you for making it a priority to write about it!) and look forward to the next step, the next exploration. i am confident that it will inspire many.

Hi Keri, I thought from your title and pic you were talking of this phenomenon, which I thought you might find interesting nonetheless. Some printer codes are known by more than those who make them.

And I'm wishing you well,

Secret Code in Color Printers Lets Government Track You
Tiny Dots Show Where and When You Made Your Print

San Francisco - A research team led by the Electronic Frontier Foundation (EFF) recently broke the code behind tiny tracking dots that some color laser printers secretly hide in every document.

The U.S. Secret Service admitted that the tracking information is part of a deal struck with selected color laser printer manufacturers, ostensibly to identify counterfeiters. However, the nature of the private information encoded in each document was not previously known.

"We've found that the dots from at least one line of printers encode the date and time your document was printed, as well as the serial number of the printer," said EFF Staff Technologist Seth David Schoen.

You can see the dots on color prints from machines made by Xerox, Canon, and other manufacturers (for a list of the printers we investigated so far, see: http://www.eff.org/Privacy/printers/list.php). The dots are yellow, less than one millimeter in diameter, and are typically repeated over each page of a document. In order to see the pattern, you need a blue light, a magnifying glass, or a microscope (for instructions on how to see the dots, see: http://www.eff.org/Privacy/printers/docucolor/).

EFF and its partners began its project to break the printer code with the Xerox DocuColor line. Researchers Schoen, EFF intern Robert Lee, and volunteers Patrick Murphy and Joel Alwen compared dots from test pages sent in by EFF supporters, noting similarities and differences in their arrangement, and then found a simple way to read the pattern.

"So far, we've only broken the code for Xerox DocuColor printers," said Schoen. "But we believe that other models from other manufacturers include the same personally identifiable information in their tracking dots."

You can decode your own Xerox DocuColor prints using EFF's automated program at http://www.eff.org/Privacy/printers/docucolor/index.php#program.

Xerox previously admitted that it provided these tracking dots to the government, but indicated that only the Secret Service had the ability to read the code. The Secret Service maintains that it only uses the information for criminal counterfeit investigations. However, there are no laws to prevent the government from abusing this information.

"Underground democracy movements that produce political or religious pamphlets and flyers, like the Russian samizdat of the 1980s, will always need the anonymity of simple paper documents, but this technology makes it easier for governments to find dissenters," said EFF Senior Staff Attorney Lee Tien. "Even worse, it shows how the government and private industry make backroom deals to weaken our privacy by compromising everyday equipment like printers. The logical next question is: what other deals have been or are being made to ensure that our technology rats on us?"

EFF is still working on cracking the codes from other printers and we need the public's help. Find out how you can make your own test pages to be included in our research at http://www.eff.org/Privacy/printers/wp.php#testsheets.

You hang tight to those words and thoughts and the story you feel needs to be told. I want to hear what you have to say and feel excited by the thought that it could be different from the first book (which I LOVE as you know)...

This prompts me to remember the interconnectedness of us all...somewhere, we are all feeling rejected, frustrated in our efforts and hopeful of coming out of this hard place.

And somewhere, we're in our bliss.

I try to think of this often, but fail to remember it when it would most help me...

I think it might be beautiful when you let hope go. Because hope places things outside yourself. "I hope for this or that". It makes no connection with what's inside you, no connection with this moment. Just hope something and you immediately fall out of this moment. :)

Creating art or a book that is "sellable" does not make an artist less of an artist or even less cool or less honest. And, it certainly does not make an artist a sell out. It just gives the artist income so she can do what she really wants to in other areas with her art... in my experience, this is where balance comes in to play when how you live your life and how you see the world are also your ways of making money.

well . . . you know that you are talented . . . and that you are atempting to do something unique . . . the rejection seems like a really good sign . . . that you are pushing boundaries . . . right up against people's (publisher's) comfort zones . . . you really do have a gift for connecting thru your art . . . a publisher will come along eventually that sees the spark of what you are doing not just as different (and therefor too scary too risk) but as the fruits of the next wave of consciousness (and therefor too fabulous not to jump in and be a part of). Hang in there . . . more good stuff will be revealed by Life . . . and thank you for posting this stuff - we love to watch you watch the world :)

I shake my head ...I don't know why you haven't found a publisher because you have an uncanny ablitity of putting into words what I feel!

Perhaps you and many of your readers (including myself) are part of that deep growth type thinking (of course many of us can not write it), yet what sells (in the eye of a publisher) are those 'disposable' type books that end up back in the used library sales...somewhat like the cheap consumerism because they ARE written to sell.
I really respect your thoughts on this and your approach to it....I just wish the market was like that!!! Your such an inspiration!

keri, thank you for NOT wanting to recycle old ideas. lately I feel like every book I read about creativity / inspiration / living well / etc all sound EXACTLY the same, like no one has any new ideas. how sad for someone to write an inspirational book with no inspiration!

i hope there's a light at the end of this tunnel for you and you produce something which will knock the socks off this world. ;)

You have been an inspiration for me for a few years now, but it always amazes me when you post something that you are going through that so eloquently echos the turmoil in my own soul. I am getting ready to push into a new venture in my life, something everyone around me is just shaking thier heads at. Thank you so much for risking baring your soul. It helps so much to know that there are others out there struggling with the same things to break out into somehting new. And Goood for You for holding fast to not being a what I call a "mulitple recycling author of the same idea". It is sad to see so many authors forced into recycling their ideas and styles just to get published and sell the books. It really must dehydrate their souls. jackie

wow!

"Hope, is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense regardless of how it turns out."

what strength and bravery it takes to admit when we feel unsure. but all of it. all the yuckiness is part of being an artist. we just have to learn to trust every one of our feelings and not to judge those we have been conditioned to call bad. without great sadness we can't experience bursting throw your hands in the air joy.

thank you for sharing. and for giving me words that i needed to hear.

It's very obvious to me that you know what you're doing - following your instinct, your gut. You're in a great place. Whenever I've been a "great place" it's never cut & dry. There are multiple feelings going on, but always, as you say here, there is this:

I must tell you that deep down I feel more resolved in my ideas than ever before. That amidst the questioning, the rejection, the groundlessness, I feel a great strength stirring...

there is a different, sweet kind of happiness here (i think)

Jennifer

Is it not possible to write a book which is "ok" which you could live off, whilst endevouring to get the other, more challenging manuscript published? The two are surely not mutually exclusive :)

I am visualizing the roots of your creativity growing deeper into the earth, while at the same time your branches are reaching skyward. Very exciting.

Thanks for sharing your insecurities, Keri-

I am a writer of a different sort. I've been a freelance journalist for the past 8 years and have recently completed my first fiction manuscript -- a mystery novel. I'm looking for agent representation and let me tell you, the rejection is NO FUN! But I'm holding tight to the world I've created and am starting the second book in the series, while I'm also exploring other, equally mysterious ways of creating.

It helps so much to know that others -- whom I consider "accomplished" -- also feel doubt and also face rejection. It reminds me that there is no "there" at the end of the path. There's only here.

Thanks again,
xooxx
LainE

Thank you for this. Keri- your words always seem to come at the perfect time.

I am personally venturing into something I've wanted to do in a long time....with all my insecurities and doubts, somehow I still think its the right thing to do. Which make it more of a reason to know that I am on the right path.

You know it in your gut too- dont give up!

Thank you for this. I really needed to read it!

Keri. I am sure you will do great in whatever you end up getting published - whether it be a sequel to Living out Loud (WHICH I GOT LAST WEEK IN THE MAIL - finally! After a while of wanting it!) and I ordered your Tear Up This Book for some more inspiration. You inspire others, even if you don't know what you're talking about. (Shh! I wont tell anyone!) Keep creating! It's what you do best!

Wise and brave. Congratulations! I can think of many well-known, successful artists who could benefit from following your lead. Good luck, and I'm sure you'll either find a publisher for your project or find that your path leads you in another new direction with even greater success.

Oh lord, I know that. I work for a printing company and I can't stop myself from ripping those off of the extra runs in the recycling boxes next to the presses. I have incorporated them into my art as well.

I can't wait to see what your next publication will be.

thank you for this.

your relentless adventuring of life,
your delicate and beautiful honesty that is like a small swallow soaring into the sky.

i really appreciate your words.
thank you.

leonie