A little grumpy today. In part due to the chewing noinses made by the mice in the walls that woke me up last night. What are they building in there? Also due to the fact that I tend to take on a little too much when I start a new project, and get easily overwhelmed by all the things that need to get done for it.
I am having difficulty deciding if i should a) clean my house, b) go for a walk, or c) work more on the book. I think I am trying to do them all at once, and end up starting nothing.
And so I do a blog post instead.
Feeling like I don't have anything interesting to write today.
Some days are like that.
Some days you feel like being immersed in the centre of a large group of people, engaging them, spurring them on with your stories. Some days you just want to sit in the corner, be in your own little world and not utter the smallest of noises.
Some days you want to be loud, wear red, noisy jewelery dangling from your wrists, enter a room loudly. Some days you want to walk quietly by youself, blending into the surroundings, feeling like a part of the larger picture.
Some days you are so completely daring, you want to eat everything up, read every book, jump off high cliffs, try all those things you've never done. Some days you want to eat cereal and watch oprah.
Some days you put on the Beastie Boys and dance wildly. Some days you only want to hear cello, and sip tea.
Some days you do a series of ten paintings and feel like the greatest artist in the history of the universe. Some days you do one and decide want to look into a new career.
Some days you spend in gut wrenching, belly holding, tear enducing laughter.
Some days it is o.k. to be quiet.
Posted by kerismith at November 19, 2004 02:05 PMits my first time to read ur blog. one thing i can say, ill definitely read it from time to time. very inspirational. would you mind if i link you to my site? :)thanks.
Posted by: angie on November 24, 2004 02:44 PMMy many colored days-by Dr. Suess...some days are yellow, some days are blue, on different days I'm different too, you'd be surprised how many ways I am on different colored days...If you haven't read this great children's book-perhaps you should.
Posted by: Rapunzel on November 22, 2004 09:15 AMYes.
Posted by: Andi on November 21, 2004 02:08 PMHi Keri,
I have felt so uninspired lately, and have been wanting to order your book. I was in W.Los Angeles at a bookstore, and there it was!! You have no idea how happy I was to find it. It's like a bowl of great soup. I want to eat it up quickly. I just love it. I'm a writer who has just been lacking on the creative end, and it is making me see the world in a different way. Thank you so much...J
Posted by: Julie on November 21, 2004 11:07 AMI meant, I WOULDN'T worry about the choice. I had a 2 year old on my lap. sorry!
Posted by: alice on November 20, 2004 10:26 PMa) clean my house, b) go for a walk, or c) work more on the book.
Those three choices are equally important. I would worry about what to do next. Any of them would be a good choice.
Aliceh
Posted by: ALIICE on November 20, 2004 10:21 PMit's true.
Posted by: kim on November 20, 2004 06:03 PMWhenever I'm feeling uncreative, frustrated, or unsociable, I always try to read things that inspire me and fill me with creative vigor. SARK has always done that for me, and I'm so happy to find another artist with a beautiful spirit who also lives in a magic cottage, and also inspires me. :) THANKS!
Posted by: meredith on November 20, 2004 04:50 PMAs your page was loading, all I could read was "You must be the change you wish to see". And I was thinking, "Yes! Yes!" Even in your grumpy moods, you still manage to work a little daily inspiration into my life (although the full quote works just as well!).
Posted by: writesonpaper on November 20, 2004 03:48 PMyep...
Posted by: fern on November 20, 2004 03:38 PMYou just described my life!
Posted by: kelly gibbons on November 20, 2004 02:32 PMyeah . . . so fabulous to just flow into however we open into the moment . . . this morning was bed til 10, snuggled with kitties :)
Posted by: Kat on November 20, 2004 11:10 AMthanks keri-
what a beautiful post. thanks for the insight into your feelings.
"its the silence between the notes that makes the music"...same with being creative, and life itself.
loved this post very much.
That was so divinely and perfectly explained!
Posted by: Jem on November 20, 2004 01:04 AMit is always nice to see that someone out there who has got the same feeling as i am.
as to my experience , when you are so troubled at which thing to do first, you end up finishing nothing .
but once you set out to do no matter which thing, you will feel much better, and all things will be done fluently:)
wish you a nice fruitful day,keri :P
Posted by: alice on November 19, 2004 11:20 PMDefinitely. Some days you need the quiet. I do that to, have SOOOO much going on that I wind up floofing off.
I call it the struggle of the creative mind.
Posted by: kristen on November 19, 2004 03:25 PMhmmm :-)
i wonder why your posts always remind me of a koan or quote i've heard in the past. this one goes back to when i was at college, sitting alone on my bench as usual, not commenting and just listening to what was being said.
the english professor we had that day had the habit of throwing in philosophical questions at random to the class. sometimes they would be stunned, sometimes they wouldn't react, sometimes they just poked fun of him. college is like that, isn't it?
"what is the soul of music?" he asked that day. before i knew it, the answer came from me, almost as spontaneously...
"silence"
Posted by: radhika on November 19, 2004 03:23 PMThose quiet days are the days you feeding your soul with cello music and tea. Not having those days will burn you out like an inexpensive candle. Being creative is an act of energy output, the quiet times are acts of recharging. Be patient with yourself. This is a lesson that it took me many years to learn. You will be Oh so much more productive by nurturing yourself and recognizing when you need to withdraw and care for your creativity.
Posted by: Kathleen on November 19, 2004 02:40 PMAnd sometimes it's nice to wake up in the morning, throw on your bathrobe (instead of a great little dress) and plop in front of the computer (instead of heading out to the library and coffee shop) and realize that someone out there feels exactly the same way as you do... mice and all!
Thanks Keri. Knowing someone else was grumpy in the same way this morning makes things feel ok. Now I'm off to see if I can prevent the mice from chewing right through our hardwood floors...
Posted by: aimée on November 19, 2004 02:27 PMHello Keri
Yes it's okay to be quiet isn't it? Have a quiet day if you can. I had an army of mice (well that's what it sounded like) in the roof above my head in the summer. I had to move out of my room in the end. They all suddenly did the same. Perhaps they heard me asking them to move on - or perhaps the cat got them.
Posted by: Michael Nobbs on November 19, 2004 02:22 PM